Hiko's world page75 ( hope for a halt )

Hey guys~~it's me again.Been updating my blog pretty frequent lately,why?It's not that I am too free or something...it's the opposite,all because I am too busy~!!!!Been in front of my comp doing that pile of endless assignments ever since I open my eyes in the morning and the last thing before bedtime, facing that screen for almost 12 hours a day....I am going insane already....
it's not only my mind is going crazy, I guess my body wasn't in great shape either....been wondering what would my poor old liver look like if I would cut myself open and take a look,probably black and urghhh....ewww...feels like puking already~~~if these "stay up whole night" thingy is not stopping, my organs will soon all rot away.T_T
But what could I do?....nothing's gonna change,I'll still have to finish them in the end~~sigh~~~
really hoping for a break, a halt to all these...even with ample of motivation, it is still difficult to handle all these stress and exhaustion.....
GIVE ME A BREAK MAN~!!!!


I miss home.

Hiko's world page74 ( LOVE )

How beautiful~~

Hiko's world page73 ( sigh )

The first time you looked at me in the eye

How foolish am I

to believe that stars will fill the dark lonely sky

Sigh

The last time you looked at me

You wanted me to die

But this time I will not cry

No more dignity and rules to comply

Like a drizzle on a hot sunny day

Pungent evaporating gas from below

How wrong

How fake a play

You’re like a rose with thorns

Hurting me as I came close just to admire your beauty

How foolish am I

To believe that a bouquet will cast off the loneliness

Sigh

You are ugly

*********

But

I forgive you of your wrongs

For that makes me happy

I will look into your face and smile

But I will give you my heart no more

From now

You’ll only be a stranger even our path intersects

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I wanted a place that I could peacefully soar

A heaven that hearts are clear as a mirror reflects

A hand that I could grab on when my hands are cold

A shoulder that tears would dry off

A person that I could deeply care

A heart that I could deeply love

A smile that I could smile back

A relation that money can’t buy

Sigh

Friendship

What a foolish game

Hiko's world page72( Difficult )

I really want to cut off the emo side of me, seriously.

Based on a HIKO’s research, it is found that humans are selfish living organisms that survives on earth to dominate take good care of all the things and wealth that is given to them and snatch it from share it to others. The humans worked in different ways in order to have a wonderful life. Isn’t this awful awesome?

From research, the results obtained are as follow:

100% of humans are fishmongers

90% of humans are fakers

80% of humans are betrayers

70% of humans run show off stage

60% of humans are dumb players

50% of humans are rule breakers

40% of humans are pure fools

30% of humans are killers

20% of humans are alive

10% of humans are……………… O.o ………… humans?

The conclusion of this research carried out is that, humans with all kinds of ways and jobs makes the world pitiful beautiful and life difficult easy.

WARNING: All of the above content of the research is done by a nobody professional.

Hiko's world page71 ( Self motivation~!!!!YES~!!!)

In order to boost my mood, confidence and motivation....I knew clearly I must do something~!!Been watching God of Study lately.....honestly, this drama gives me lots of motivation......and I love it~!! even the songs are awesome......I must really work hard~!!!

Hiko's world page70 (When I am reaching for the stars)

Birthday is over,Chinese New Year has passed~the conclusion?....I am all back to reality.Firstly I would like to apologize to those who got annoyed by my two Chinese post before this,I'll switch it back to English now okay?^^It's been a bit dull here in Kampar lately,especially for the Biomed students.....why?...well,it's been a bit OVER HECTIC lately,just imagine that you have more than 8 assignments in a 14 week semester....scary?...not enough?....there are still more, this hasn't included all the Mid-term tests, quizzes, presentations as well as lab reports....I don't think I am even breathing now........it's just way too heavy for geniuses, not to mention normal students like me who are always stuck in the middle and occasionally at the bottom.........tears are nothing now comparing to the stress that is causing everybody to develop liver problems.....LOL...but not funny=.= many are changing course, many dropped....many died *_*

I asked myself...where is my star? *stares to infinity and beyond* I want to reach it, but the question is~~~can I?? ................................I wonder~

Hiko's world special ( 挥别十九号车站 )

一直都在想，一定要在到达二十以前完成这样的一篇文字，不然就再也没有那样的机会了。很开心，我的坚持，使它能如期完成，欣慰呀~人生真的好像一个不知何时停站的旅程，呵呵呵~~~或许因为这篇文字是在回吉隆坡的火车上写的吧^_^望着车厢窗外向后移动的风景，橙色晚霞布满的天空，听着Mp3耳机里Andre Gagnon 的 Bobichon，让我的脑袋瓜不禁控制不了地想东想西。很奇怪，生命每过个十年都会有一种很奇妙的感动与激动。这篇文字没有什么特别吸引人的地方，像日记一样纯粹地记录着我此刻的心情。回首经过的每一站，我无法不惊叹自己已经走过了那么多个年头，惊觉光阴果然是飞逝而去的。在这个过了十九站的旅程中，每站都有着一段属于它的故事，属于它的感动，属于它的回忆；每每回味都让我觉得自己长大了不少。谈及“长大”二字，坦白而言，我并不喜欢~~~我的内心深处依然有股浓烈的冲动和欲望，渴望着自己别长大……至少别那么快。呵呵~~~是叫逃避吗？这样的想法很幼稚吧，明知道不可能的……人生旅途中，一站比一站来得更现实，这现实中夹带着我的恐惧，因为现实的真理就是它的变化无常，它的无情与残酷。它的速变，说实在的，我怕。想一想，十年前的我只有十岁，一个四年级的小学生，不知天高地厚的；十年后的我已经是个二十岁的大学生了，才十年耶~！！！什么都不一样了。写到这里，我又望了望车窗外，暮色更深了，荒凉的油棕林，心也寒掉了，我看到了我内心对长大的恐惧……怕就不要看嘛~我将视线转回到了车厢内，此刻我才惊觉车厢内是多么的光亮，多么的安详，我前后左右的乘客都入梦乡了，大概都在作美梦吧，感觉上睡得很甘甜~~呵呵呵~~~我醒觉了，虽然人生是不断地、无情地在变换着，但是我并非孤身一人在这旅途中，有许许多多的人跟我一样，也有一群我最爱与珍惜的人陪伴着我，更有我的上帝与我同在。看来，是我多虑了。即使夜晚降临，漆黑笼罩着前方，但是要记得车厢内一直是充满光芒的、温馨的。真是个傻瓜！由于是新年将近，游子们自然纷纷回乡过节，这次也是我第一次体验那带着游子回家的心情踏上火车，感觉很妙~就因为车厢内大部分都是游子的原因吧，这趟火车之旅停站了很多次，这样，让我特别留意了每一站不一样的风光。生活的节奏太快了，没能有机会放慢自己的步伐去细心感受每一段不同的故事，珍惜只有那一下下的人、事和物。的确，这样很浪费。一站过去了不能再重来，每一站都是上帝赐予我们的作业、礼物、一个学习成为更好的一个人的机会。像之前说的，并不是每一站都是山明水秀好风光，有时候也会是荒凉无人的死寂。这短短十几年走来，有开心的，也有失落的，但是我非常庆幸，因为我依然很幸福，这是上帝给予我额外的恩典。我很感激一直不离不弃伴随着我成长的爸爸妈妈，弟弟和所有家人朋友。我也要谢谢曾经伤害过我的人，不管你有意无意，我谢谢你让我有学习的机会，让我成长、成熟。那曾经的疯狂、快乐、悲伤的回忆，我决定将它小心翼翼装进心中的小瓶子里，要我永远不要忘记自己活过的每一秒，要我明天比今天更坚强，更勇敢。一站又一站过去了，数一数发现我就快到站了，原来我们都有同样一个终点站，一个每个人都会期待，都会到达的终点站，那就是家。挥别我的十九号车站，二十号车站~我来了！！

《挥别十九号车站》原稿

回家的喜悦都写在脸上了^^